09/24/17 - Day 68 of Life
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Until the day one twin left the NICU without the other, I never truly realized how much peace I felt knowing that they always had each other.
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For the first nine weeks of life, my twins had separate private rooms, only machines, love and hope keeping them alive.
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I could only visit once a day and wished I could have been with them 24/7. That was not an option for me or my family. No matter the length of stay, leaving your baby in the NICU will break your heart. I felt empty sleeping in my bed and wondering how my babies were doing when they should have been up all night stealing my sleep at home.
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Nine weeks after their traumatic birth, the stars aligned and the magical “twin room” became available. For the first time since the minute baby B was born, my twins would be reunited. They would share a room, hear each others’ cries, smell each others smells and intangibly feeling each others presence.
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Leaving the NICU was still hard, but I felt such a sense of relief knowing that they were not alone when I left. They had each other.
